12 May 2012
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My Mandala
I was in deep meditation when I constructed this and I thought rather than write an entry, I would construct something. It is in some way "wrong" as Mandalas go. The arrows are pointing down as if they define me, not up as if they are expressions of myself. At the end of this section on Campbell I still have that question "who am I?" ringing in my ear. By now of course, the question should be answered.I am a manifestation of the energy which is all around me. Then I should have no mandala, yet there it is in all its glory. I intend to make it right once I know who I am and what I must do.
I have spent my whole life attempting to live as the definition of each of the attributes of my mandala, not as my pure self. And what is my pure self, merely the Force AND its vessel. Wow how deep that is and I have no clue what the hell it means.
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Well, I discovered something in chat. All of the things that define me: gender, family, race, religion, education, disability are all superficial categories created by man to keep us from going insane. Unfortunately, these also have the uncanny ability to bind us, to confine us within the laws that define the category. This prevents us from locating the true self and establishing a connection.
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